Monday, January 16, 2006

Chop and Chop...where's the steak?

Kak Ina and I was driving at about 6.30pm, trying to find a place to eat at kampung baru. It was around june-july 2001. Kak Ina took me from my so called college, the KTSN, for dinner that day, and we decided to go to Kampung Baru. Tired of the same place, we went exploring the area. As you know, roads in Kampung Baru, is like a maze, from one point to another point, i can safely says that i will never be wise with the roads there.

Looking around for "exciting" new place to eat, both of us was looking at each side of the roads, expecting a new discovery. Suddenly, we saw this one place, a mapley, with interesting, round-cable-wire modified table, and etc. We were looking at each other, signalling maybe we should try it. Nevertheless, we saw the workers were setting the table and umbrella etc, Kak Ina said.."Macam baru nak bukak jer, hmm....". By than, we drove passed it....After that incident, everytime i went to Kampung Baru, the sight of that place was playing in my head, but i can't remember how kak ina and I was there before.

During my preclinical years, Nager and I were always hoping from one place to another for dinner, experiencing different taste. "Jom gi area kat masjid, arini", i suggested. So we drove there, turned at the junctions just beside the masjid. After 10 minutes driving, i knew i'm lost, and Nager by than was mumbling, complaining about my adventerous attempt. I knew he was hungry...haha. As i was driving through a pasar malam, i saw that, about 800 meters ahead it will be the big road again. So, trying not to go back to square one and let nager have another point to comment on my "adventerous attempt" that day, i turned left into a tiny road. And there it was......The Chop and Steak...the place that i discovered earlier with Kak Ina....

The place was really different from it is now. It was just a small mapley, with about 10-15 round-cable-wire table, with one tiny kitchen. What was interesting about it was the atmosphere, hmm...something like a cowboy garden that the owner trying to create. Something like an australian outback. And another interesting point was it attempt to deliver "only" western food, which was rather an adventerous attempt, at that point, for a malay mapley. We went in, and that point, Nager was rather quiet, as the place look nice. But he did said,"Kalau makanan tak sedap, kena ko li"....Luckily and amazingly the food was "amazing" and cheap. As we were walking to our car after the meal, i was sure, it will be the first and definately not the last visit there....

Since than, lot of changes had happened to Chop and Steak, it expanded from a small lot to a big compound now. From an outback look, to maybe a titanic look?? haha...There are more selections on the menu, and they explored italian and cuisine hotplate. And the price had also increased since than, chicken wing was rm6.50 suddenly increased to RM 8.50, overnight. The mango juice, from an amazing RM2.00 to RM2.50. Nevertheless, the taste was still....nice.

Chop and Steak, had also seen lot of happenings in my life. Lot of birthdays were celebrated there, end of exam celebration, winning the physiology competition. I had brought friends from different nationality there ranging from indonesian, taiwanese, european,caucasasian, philipinees, the arabian etc.... It was where we broke our ramadhan fasting, and at time where i had my early sahur. It was where i got a call, when my sis called me to inform me that "datuk" had passed away, and it was also where i knew i was the best student.

Yesterday, was 16 January, a day that was so important 53 years ago. The day my mother was born. And, chop and steak, was where mak, abah, ya jani and I had our dinner. As usual, we ate like there was no tomorrow, and making lot of noise while filling the stomach. As i walked out from that Kampung baru's chop and steak, i hold a brochure...

"Tahu tak kat mana, chop and steak baru?", i asked jani. As all the answers were wrong,..."kat depan tasik dekat ngan kolej ya, kat depan tasik serdang tu.."....and jani was grabbing the brochure from my hand looking at it. And by than, ya said..."hmm...lepas ni abang li laa pulak kena drive gi kat kitoarang, tak payah lagi gi kat sini.."

and by than, i suddenly realised......hmm...yupp....maybe starting from today, it will be less visit to that Kampung Baru's Chop and Steak....a place, that interestingly played rather an important part of my life, without i ever really realise it....

Thursday, January 12, 2006

Words that "i love"

Have u ever have a word that brings meaning to your life? A word that important to you. Word that when u hear it, it give a "homely", special feeling....Hmm, no?...yeah i guess that is weird...but yeah i have words that have that impacts to my life....it just something like a favourite colour, favourite food, favourite place...It is the "special word".

I think i started to have this special word, when i was in matriculation. MIRACLE was the first word to capture my world. I believe in it, miracle. I always want it to happen, and i bet everyone want it too. I did experiences miracles in my life, the more you experience it, the stronger your believe to the almighty. It is a beautiful word....a miracle by itself...

Talking about sixth sense, INSTINCT, is something that i wish i really have. As i entered my clinical years, i realised that logical reasoning, was just a small part of life. There are a lot more things around us that are just not there.Something that need more than us to feel it. Instinct was a vey meanigful word to me, through my clinical years. It played a major role in my life. It just gave more meaning to everyday life, to look at the happening in a more subjective way.

I guess the new year and aidiladha, just brought me to realised something that i need in this life, BLESSINGS. Yupp, it is HIS blessings that will make everything in life, the best as it is. The word itself brings a good feeling to my soul.

Isn't it beautiful, the three words. The MIRACLE, The INSTINCT and The BLESSINGS. Yupp, realise it or not, it is three things that i need in my life....

Trying to be....

I believe in everybody there is always a feeling of right and wrong. I believe that deep inside in each one of us, we will always wanted to do something nice. How bad that person is, i still believe that somewhere inside of him, there is a feeling to do something good. That what i believe....

Yet the hardest part of it, is to do the good deeds. It is always easier to do something bad than to do something good. Yupp, i guess that is why we will be rewarded if we do something good. Most of the time, we will end up to just stay as it is, because it is actually(hmm thinking of it)equally hard to do something really bad. But, that is the problem with most of us, to just stay at it is....

I always agree with the phrase "to live as it is...appreciate the moments". But i guess, i had been living with that fact for so long, that i ended to come to the "all or none" law. Realised that there was no excitement and no thrill of it. Put it this way, looking at tranquil flowing clear river, is always rewarding, yet if we just stay there, it just....as it is.....

I have to admit that one of my new year resolution is to be a bit better in everything. Realised the words "a bit",as i don't want to put my aim to high. I don't want to turn my "slow flowing river to niagara fall", but i just want it to be more exciting yet better. Turn it into a "beautiful waterfall", where people can stop by, linger and enjoy it, and remember it forever. Turn it into an "exciting safe stream", where people can come to experience the thrill. Turn it into a nice "river park", where people can come to release their stress, or for them to have fun, or a nice walk, or for them to row boat together. Turn it into a river where fishes and plants live in harmony. I just want to be a "river" that memorable and be what a "river" should be...

Hmm, yeah...the hardest thing about new year resolution is to start and continue the resolution/....but maybe the hardest part now..is to understand about the "river" stuff up there..haha....

Friday, January 06, 2006

Teluk Intan...history...

So,that's it. My last posting in Teluk Intan as a medical student, hopefully.As usual, the last will always have something about it...

Believe it or not, i drove there, for the first time, with my own car. As someone said, "Azwan sure tak percaya". That's partly true, as i am not really fond of driving, but realised that driving is important,as it is part of my everyday life. Went there with Yazid and Ici, and departed from HUKM at 7.17pm, arrived at 10.15pm, with about half an hour break at Restoran Jejantas Sg Buloh. It was not that bad.

The last time, was the first time i had to stay in a house with 7 other guys. Imagine, a small house shared by 8 guys, hmm...I was lucky before, as all the earlier 3 posting, i was posted at the end of it, so basically, the numbers were smaller. Yet, again it was not that bad, barely realised that much different...

O&G, was the last posting. Started the class on Tuesday as Monday(2/1/2006) was a public holiday, we had about 4 days to get all of it. 9 of us, yazid, zamri, yee long, ici, eow, quah, zakiah, azreen and i. Have to admit that the posting there was superb. I palpated like more abdomens, even if i put together the numbers of abdomen i palpated last year and this year in hukm. Patients were cooperative and it was so simple to do it. The first time i actually appreciate palpating a pregnant lady.

The labour room was pleasant, not the sight of the labour, but the labour room, the place itself. The midwives were nice, the patients were nice. The babies were cute, as usual.

The foods in Teluk Intan, as said before, were excellent. Will gonna miss Tepung Komak, and those cheaps 20cent kuih. The kakak counter canteen was also friendlier this time of posting.

One of the things that i took for granted, was the life in Teluk Intan. I remembered the jeti before, yet i never really look at the life around my area. The surau community was great, the peoples were actually friendly, and the sceneries, the simple skies, the palm trees, the road, the sunset, were beautiful.

I felt lucky,as at least, i was able to realise and to appreciate Teluk Intan as it is, during my last few days there....

Sunday, January 01, 2006

Songs through 2005 2006 transition

Hmm, haha, just want to share several songs that was echoing through my minds yesterday....through the 2005-2006 transition. The songs are

1. Taufik Batisah-I Dream
2. Taufik Batisah-First
3. Taufik Batisah-One Last
4. Jem- They
5. Jaclyn Victor- Tiada Lagi Indah

Yupp, 3 out of 5 are from Taufik, the first singapore idol. I will be hooked to his songs for a while through this first week of the year. Haha, maybe u guys should check this 5 songs, nothing great about it, just songs that were with me through that transition.

The thing about tragic love song...we just love it

I was alone in my room, totally blur and a bit down as usual, it was thursday night,realised that it was nearly yet end of another week. Worried about lots of things study etc, bored and guilty at the same time. Trying to sleep, "pusing sana" pusing sini", but, when u want it to happen, than it will not be easy. So i grabbed my mp3 and headphone, and swithed it on. And this was the song that captivated my ears and mind....i try to translate it

Malam meresahi dingin sepi-Dark Night surrounding my loneliness
Kini dikau tiada menemani diriku-As you are not around with me
Tiada Lagi Indah-There is no more happiness

Kini mimpi mimpi tak sepahat-Now,there is no more dream
Tanpa dikau di sisi kekasih- Without you beside me
Mengusapi lenaku ini-To hold me through the night

Hadirmu sementara-You presence was for a while
Seketika Cuma-Only for a moment
Pergimu selamanya-Now, you are gone forever

Kemilauan cintamu-Your shining love
Menyuluhi cintaku-Guiding my heart
Asmaramu sebuah memori abadi selamanya-Your love is an eternal memory
Keindahan kasihmu-The beauty of your love
Menyinari kasihku-Shining my heart
Asmaramu hanyalah tinggalan kenangan sedih sendu-Yet,now, it is just a sad memory

Kekasih tetap dalam hati-Your love is always in my heart
Semoga kau tenang di sana sayang-Wish you will be peaceful there....


Haha, it sound funny when i try to translate sentence by sentence. Anyway, it is a song by Jaclyn victor, TIada Lagi Indah(No more beauty..something like that). Basically, it just another song that shows how sincere true love, always end in a tragic way. Yet, isn't most or all great love, usually end in a tragedy?

Remember Titanic,Romeo and Juliet and the list go on. I always like this one korean song, KISS...and i bet most actually had heard or watched the video before. And again, true sincere love, end in actually manner, tragedy. Nevertheless, i have to agree, there are love story that end "happily ever after", Cinderella, Snow White, when harry met sally, Notthing Hill. I love Notting Hill.

But, i just want to be honest. Love that end in a tragedy, in my opinion, always look great and superior than the happy ones.

That night, the song was superb. First time i heard it. I just love the song. It was perfect... I was blur, down and a bit sad, yet that sad tragic love song, was the perfect background to help me through the night. I was smiling...and end up woke up to a fresh day, ready to face the world. Weird, right? A sad sincere tragic love, was the best remedy for a lonely, bored soul.

But don't get me wrong. Even i think that great love story always end in a tragic way, I pray that mine will not end in that way, yet hoping it is still a sincere great love for sure.